You are brave.
You are brave for your very act of loving someone like him. For having the strength to love someone who can’t love you the way you deserve to be loved. You are brave because even when it hurt like hell, you still decided to stay. Because even when he gives you every reason to walk away, you still choose him without thinking about it twice.
I salute you for your belief that it is possible for people to change. That one day, he just might realize how important you actually are. That one fine morning, he will finally learn to see and appreciate your efforts.
That a time will definitely come when he will acknowledge all the time and emotions you always invested in him. That in one special moment, he will come to his senses and finally realize how incredible you are, how good you’ve always been to him and how he needs to reciprocate the kind of love you truly deserve.
I salute you for trusting him with your entire heart and soul, even in the times when he refused to accept it. I salute you for allowing him to be a part of your life even when he won’t even do something as simple as holding the door for you.
I salute you for allowing him to hold your hand, even when you knew he would just let go eventually. I salute you for letting him have all your time and attention even when he only becomes available when he has nothing better to do.
I salute you for the determination you display. For always hiding your sorrow behind a strong lady façade, knowing that every time he’ll come, you will accept him with an open heart. And every time he wants to go, you will let him go only to wait patiently for the day he gets bored again and starts to think of you.
I salute you on your courage to stay with someone who only treats you like his favorite pastime. Someone who can only love you less and less. Someone who will probably never end up choosing you. Someone who might act interested today and then completely indifferent tomorrow. Someone who can love the girl who came before you and even the girl who will come after you, but never you.
Someone who will only take you to places where you can just ‘chill’ and never on a proper dinner date. Someone who will only send you home and never take you there himself. Someone who will only call you in the middle of the night and never any time during the day. Someone who won’t be able to acknowledge your magic even if you turn the world upside down for them.
I salute you for still having a portion in your heart that can never stop caring, hoping, and expecting. Caring for him enough to let him break your heart into pieces over and over again, and letting him into your life, knowing he won’t stay long.
That space in your soul that still searches for the possibility of an “us” even though he sees you alone, someone who is good for a few moments. That part in your heart that keeps expecting that he might just change his mind, and decide to finally be with you or at least put in some effort to make it work.
I salute you for giving him SO much more than what you’ll be receiving.
I salute you because you got used, but still chose to forgive him. You were badly hurt, but you still chose to heal. You were taken for granted, but you chose to put in even more effort than anyone could comprehend.
I salute you because even after all the hurtful things people said to you just for loving the wrong person, you kept on listening, accepting and offering your big, beautiful heart to them. I salute you because no matter how much your heart has been damaged, and no matter how much your soul has been crushed, you will still always choose LOVE. You will choose to learn, to forget, and to move forward with your life. You will choose to accept the pain, overcome it, and then let go.
I salute you because you are courageous enough to love a person who can’t love you back. Because you have this undying hope that maybe he’ll find an ounce of strength to love you back the same way. Because despite all the signs that told you it won’t work out, you still saw a few reasons why it actually can.
I salute you because even when you know you deserve so much better than what you are getting, you still end up settling for the tiny amount he’ll give. Just because you love him. You love him, even when he can’t and he won’t. This, right here, is probably one of the most brave, spectacular, and painful things to do.
I salute you because when all is said and done, loving someone is never really easy. Loving is scary, even torturous sometimes. But you still choose to see love for all its beautiful attributes. You still choose to keep loving people, and not just the easy people, or the people who can give you the world. You didn’t love the right person. You loved the wrong one, and all that reflected was complete bravery.
Keep loving! I sincerely hope that the next person you choose to love will be the right one.